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lol found it this was the thing that I lost that went into drafts, well seems in my older years I spend much more time thinking than writing lol I know if I write it down its good but I find it’s hard to get here. I can't get Karen out of my mind we laid her to rest but she really isn't for me or her family Iam sure in tell we know what happened we will never know why because there is no ok reason for another to hurt someone like her and the worst case that someone who knew and loved her may have done this aaahhhh its horrible I know she is ok and in the BIG plan GODS got it but it’s still hard want to know want to understand sssooo sad .It brings back we all have diff parts of our life’s that mold us and help us to who we become the Tenney family was one of those for me for a while in my early married years Julie and I tried to stay close, letters and when she came to town she would come over but time and family got the better of us and now even though she has lived here for several years we haven't been close due to in some part her life revolves around the church and mine dose not I respect and take a lot from it but have to let some of it go due to my views and belief’s on gays etc.. Anyway if we aren’t blessed to have stayed close to our girl hood friends than a whole life time goes by and you have these broken connections I still feel close and love that family but realize just like mine a whole lifetime has gone by of children grandchildren spouses ext.,,,,, it’s sad but ok too, we still have our memories of our time together and we still can come together in these hard times of loss.