well it was one heck of a weekend got the room all cleaned out and readdy to go .Picked up Matt monday morning was wonderful to see him a lot to deal with for him and us pray we all make it .GOD is great People are crazyyyyyyyyy.

AMEN.

well first good morning,I got busy yesterday and got a lot done that I had control over and it did make me feel much better.I also put out a help call to my children to come help today if they could within ten mens.my daughter answered and asked when I needed her with in two hours my youngest son answered and told me he would be here after two texs later my fourth son said ya sure he would be here (note he dose the most for me all the time hes my handy man lol) never heard from oldest son who has a big family and is very busy called him today and said don't worry about it as my hubby decided to help too. well than we hubby and I readdy  to go on dump runs but no pickup and no kids lol and no one answering phone,so go to daughters house to get pickup by the by our pickup we let her use and someone (she thinks she knows who) slashed her tiers aaaaaahhhhh we don't have the money to fix that right now,did you know the devil is using you to do evil and she dose not have any money.that's for the person who did it. Iam alwaysssssss floored by someone Else doing meanness or hurt to someone on purpose because I could never do that in my cut,my soul I know its wrong and would hurt me just as much to do that and believe me I have had cause in the past,the hardest is always those that would or do hurt my children,adults or not once when my daughter was only a teen someone did hurt her very much and I remember my anger and even plotting in my mind how I could get revenge ext... put never could have gone through with it as always came my inner voice they are Gods child too and they have a mother too ext... ext... and even tho there act was pure evil I know that someday even if not tell they face GOD himself they will have to answer to it. but alas it hurts so much that yet another bad thing has happened to my girl,she has had a very hard year and she deserves a break.For those that care pray for her for those who would do this crap,watch out other members of my family are not so forgiving as me. Well on the better things or not lol Matt called last night and now hes mad Iam sure because I hung up on him I shouldn't have but he was being rude and disrespectful of my feelings.So today Thought he would call back but has not trying Iam sure to give me MOM guilt as tomorrow is his Birthday so he better call than as I can't call him. Was such a beautiful day yesterday and today is nice but looks like it might cloud back over.When ever you start a long overdue project to clean up ext. it always leads to so many more that needs to be done aaaaahhhhh have to stay focused on project at hand witchfor now is getting the room cleaned out so Matt had a place to stay.

well I got the first phone call I was waiting for today and in the  middle the phone cut out went thought the steps with charter and for a few mins the box works and than goes back out ,Matt can only call home on land line so made appt. but not tell tomorrow morning aaaah than got a phone call on my cell saying do you want to be seen today and I was like yesssss please so than Matt could call back and the other phone call Iam waiting for but the lady said I''ll call you right back and let you know when and its been two and half hours and no call back aaaaaahhhhh guess its Gods way of saying get in the room and work thats something with in your control,so true for all those moms and grandmas who waist our time worrying over things we have no control over GO do something you do have control over clean your room do the prodject you have been putting off ext...ext... you will feel so much better when your done even if you only do part .

4/16/12
well GOOD morning  to tell you the truth I thought I would come here more than I have so far but I think that  I over think what to write and what not to in the past when I wrote a journal I found that I went through stages of only writing when a big thing had happened ugly negative or some times more of a gratitude diary but here I would like to write both and be honest and in doing so not only help myself by looking back at things I wrote but perhaps help by sharing with others alto as of yet no one has read my boring blog lol.Iam not good at grammar or spelling spell check helps but I am not good at spacing ext, so sometimes I tend to write like I TALK no . lol. Today Iam trying to get going woke up when Herb left for work about 5:30am could not get back to sleep my mind racing over the things I need to get done anticipation over phone calls and up coming events so I tossed and turned,finally got up and made some oatmeal and coffee came back to bed and turned on the boob tube and now came to my blog so now it almost 9:30am ,thinking should have just got up and worked instead of thinking about it lol ,oh well one of the things I have learned in my 53yrs of life is to give my self a break and its ok sometimes to take it slower lol. In my very first blog I wrote about the knowledge,people,and things Iam grateful for these still are so true and if you want to read the list go to the start and read my first blog. Laughing watching the Doctors explaining why preg.women have more gas,burping and farting lol I don't even remember if I did or not because now today as a pre menapausal women of 53 I can't move with out it lol aaaaahhhh aging so fun. If your over the age of 25 or so you know by now this life goes sssoooooo fast thats why I said we need to live in the moment,its hard when your anticipating and you have a history that scares you but TRY, telling myself this .Well shout out to my great friends Steve&Davena for talking me away this weekend and having some fun while poor hubby had a cold and had to stay home and hibernate,and belive me that was good for him too as hes one of those who likes to be alone when hes sick unlike me his wife who wants to be babied and talking care of.AAAHHHH its bad enough that I have all this crap to get done now Iam fighting the ants agian  they come in the house after we have rain and Iam a non poison girl so its a slow battle.well today I feel like I could write for hours but its because it helps me procrastinate so I better say bye for now and get buzy.

April 13,2012 2:46am
well had my massage today IAM so thankful for Rebecca she keeps me centered ,than I went to the River for a while didn't win but had fun for awhile and had a couple of drinks than brought herb dinner and went to the Firehouse to meet Paul and mike and girl and had so much fun singing talking almost dancing lol and had a shot or two with the girls ,happy birthday Emile love ya .thanks to Tammy for a safe ride home guess I will get my walking in tomorrow to receive my car lol.

Been having a hard time getting going lately have a lot to do and can't make myself get started need to clean the room out for Matt but just stay in bed and play games one the computer aaahhh procrastinator I know its because its all over whelming of course I am happy he will be out of prison and I love him but I really don't look forward to giving up our alone time and of course the worry if he doesn't do what he needs to I need to get going and stop being a bump.

4/11/12

A lot has happened in the last year good, bad, and more so in less than two weeks we pick up Matthew I pray he can start a new and make a better life for him self everyone pray for him please we all have problems and weaknesses his has been drugs but he has a good heart and still has a mind so pray for strength.I feel like in so many ways Iam a diff. person than I was in younger years I finally get that its so important to live in the moment ,yesterday is a memory tomorrow a dream today is a present so live in it time gets faster and faster the older you get I mean really I remember getting to my 40's (the best years for me ) and all of a sudden they were gone and I have splashed down into the fifty's lol and my wonderful hubby is going to be 60 this year hard to believe but he looks great and is doing good I think. I like so many am fighting to have a longer amount of time here on this earth I don't fear the after life as I believe and know a lot of people already there lol but I would like to have more time with my children and my grandchildren ext......Each day Iam so thankful for the knowledge of GOD,for the home I have, for the husband I was givein for my children my mother my grandchildren My friends my family born and choosen .for living in the U.S.A.and all the blessings that intells all these IAM GRATEFUL FOR and I think its good that I get it I think it counts that I get it that I see,when I look around I see the  beauty around me even when its raining I see the nature the sky the clouds the sun the moon I try to see the beauty in people its easier to see it in those you are close to but I look for it even in those who try to be ugly underneath its there they just bury it.

April 5,2012
well hi all this is my first I think lol blog Iam old and new to this my name is Robin and Iam trying to update my profile but so far has not let me put in a picture,I love facebook because it allows me to keep in touch with family and friends who I may not get to see that often,snag pictures and watch those kids who grew up with my kids grown with family's of there own ext... Iam all about God,Family,friends and life I try to be a good person but am human which means Iam not perfect by any standard lol.I love to post now and again to facebook but like alot of you Iam sure sometimes need room to ramble lol I have always been a writer of sorts (mostly in my own mind lol) so enjoy puttin down my thoughts feelings ext... when I was a younger person I use to say I wanted to be two things in life a MOTHER and A WRITER LOL well I sure got my first wish being the mother to six wonderful children (seven One in heaven) and the writer thing well can't say I will ever get paid for it but I do do it lol.Iam still trying to get back and look at the blog page I set up, lol hope I can see the finished project. So was thinking about doing a blog ever sense I saw the movie about the girl who blogged doing her cooking and again last night it hit me that I needed to write as life is hard and complicated and sometimes you need to vent lol which I will do soon but today its a new day and the sun is out and I have a couple of places to be so for now cyber space hello and God bless have a great day. by the by I use towanda6 because I loved the movie fried green tomatoes and it a name in there that had meaning to me lol and robin AKA Nana because Nana is me  now (grandma ) one of my most blessed names I love .